Have you ever been addicted? Ever had something you think about 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, and you’re so focused on it you’d be willing to give up money, time, and you’ll do anything to get your next fix? And when you get your fix it’s never enough??

Welcome to my world. When people ask why I run, I like to compare it to cocaine addict. When an addict gets their high their satisfied for a short time and then they start looking for their next fix. They will look in easy places first, move on to harder places, and then will eventually do what ever it takes to get that high again…

This is how I feel. I’ve been told I have an addictive personality before. I’ve been told how bad it is for me and I’d better “be careful” so I don’t get wrapped up into things. Big suprise- I don’t listen…

To me there’s nothing like thrill of a training cycle, the challenge of working to make myself better than I was yesterday, the pain and pleasure of pushing myself when I want to quit, or helping another runner work through their pain during a race so I can get that finish line feeling.

I don’t even need it to be my race. In fact I’d rather it be someone else’s. It makes me happier to cross the finish line as a pacer than as a runner. But after that high wears off with the post race beer, I know I’m headed right for the post race blues. The high is always better than expected and when it wears off, the crash is real…

I immediately want that fix again. I’m ready to put in the time and effort to get it, but that unknown wakes me up every morning with an urge to go get it again. I’m ready: ready to find another race, another training cycle, another high. Will it ever end? I don’t know. I suppose it might. One day I might just decide I’m done racing or running… At this point I hope not, but times change. People change.

There’s a theory called the Law of Diminishing Return. The more you want something, the more you go after it and the more you consume the less enjoyable the return is… With me this works for doughnuts, candy, and all the bad stuff I’ve always done but for now it hasn’t hit with running…

So for now I’m headed off to find my next adventure. My next experience. My next challenge. My next fix… Leadville 100 is about 300 days away and the more I think about it, the more I get the itch, the cravings, the more I need a quick fix to get me there. Whether it’s more long runs, harder training, or another race or two this year… I need that fix- Yes I’m addicted and I need that feeling… Because yeah, I get high.

Run Epic my Friends


Published by Gary Stotler

Gary Stotler is a father, running, fitness, weight loss and personal development addict. Formally 400 pounds, Gary has naturally lost 200 pounds, created a coaching & speaking business and has become a 100 mile ultra-runner. Holding a degree in Psychology & Sociology, certifications from the National Academy of Sports Medicine as a personal trainer, mindset & behavioral modification coaching, a certification in DISC personality assessment coaching and he is a certified speaker, coach & mentor with the John Maxwell Team. Gary firmly believes, if we take One Step at a Time, nothing is impossible. He is determined to let his actions show people what is possible and hopes to help you shake up your thoughts, change your actions and create your future.

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